December 4 until 10, me and my son Akmal waas on holiday in England. We departed from KK to Brunei on the 3rd of december. On the same day we left Brunei to London. We stop for transit at Dubai which scheduled fo over an hour, unfortunately it was delayed for lmost 3 hours! We are scheduled to arrive around 6.30 in the morning of 4th december 2017, instead we arrived around 10.45 in the morning. it doesn't really matters as we can only check in at the hotel at 2 pm. We took a train going to Hammersmith, from there we took a bus to Bayswater, where our hotel situated. I booked our hotel online and it was one of the cheapest we can get for less than 3 months before departure. It was Wedgewood hotel. Not bad, very basic but it's  comfortable enough, though a bit dirty especially the carpet, but it served it's purpose. I would stay there again if it is still the cheapest we can get. We did arrived safely at the hotel, thanks to my son who manage to go through the map quite correctly. As I said earlier, we arrived at the hotel around 12 pm, so we are not allowed to check-in yet however the hotel let us leave our bags at their store so that we can go for our first sight seeing! Yeay! Will be continued...    

BENGKEL PENULISAN BLOG

MasyAllah, it has been many years since I last wrote in my blog! Thanks to this workshop, I eventually have the chance to open my blog. At this moment, as I am writing, we are still discussing about MCMC, talking about telecommunication rules and regulation. It makes me hungry 😁😂! It seems a bit boring, though it is important for us to know, but it takes ages. 

   I came for the purpose to learn and to polish-up my writing skill, so it seems a bit way out of the thing that I am expecting! I think these women are more interested with the speaker 😂😂😂. 

   Alhamdullillah, finally the questioning ended. We are given 5 minutes break.

   The title is "Why Blog?" Should I start a Blog? 34 things to know (before you start). Okay, we'll what is it going to be. It is 3 minutes before 12 p.m., but we are no way near the workshop we are attending here for. Half of the day was thrown away only for the SKMM session. Is it beneficial? Ya.. I think it is. Not knowing what we are facing if we go over board will definitely put us in hot water, so I guess it is good to know the work that the MCMC people are doing, so that when we have problem especially with defamation or fake news, we will know where to turn to.

  But, hey what is going on here? It's already 2 minutes pass 12, but we are still waiting for the real workshop to start!

   1. It helps you learn new things

   2. It makes you think clearer - understand more, free to explore etc

   3. It helps you write better - there must be limit to our writing

   4. It builds your confidence - we can build our rapport from the comments given

   5. It helps you speak more coherently

   6. It can make you money - when people interested, you can sell your story

   7. It can help you aid good causes - the money get can be used to help others

   8. It requires no prior knowledge

   9. It challenges you  

 10. It is free (or affordable)

 11. It helps you build an audience

 12. It lets you help other people

 13. It can help you influence public policy

 14. It disciplines you

 15. It helps you have credibility

 16. It helps you get published

 17. It can land you speaking engagements

 18. It can get you consulting deals

 19. It can get you freelance writing gigs

 20. It can promote your art or hobby

 21. It sharpens your observation

 22. It helps you stay in touch with distant friends and family

 23. It advances your resume

 24. it boosts your offline business

 25. it boosts your creativity

 26. It helps you make better choices

 27. It makes you happy

 28. It gives you freedom

 29. It helps you acquire valuable new skills

 30. It eases your personal problems

 31. It allows you document your life

 32. It makes you stand out

 33. It builds your network

 34. It helps you live forever

 GO START SOMETHING AWESOME!!!

We need to know what we want to write, and make sure that it is something that people what to read. It must be something captivating, for example let say you want to make a chair, tell that this chair is also something else that people want to know.

Interesting new knowledge. No wonder my blog has no follower 😂😂😂, probably because I wrote something which does not interest others!!!

Well, inshaa Allah I will try better after this. Hopefully I'll become a great writer, not only as a blogger, but a novelist, aamiinnnn.

Please pray for my success ya...💓💓💓

Be thankful...

Assalamualaikum warramatulahi tahala wabarakatu, such a fine day today, unfortunately I myself is not quite fine. But I try not to entertain the sick feeling by doing the house chores as much as possible, that includes making breakfast for my only son, sweeping the floor and mop it. Now I feel quite okay, thank you Allah for giving me the opportunity to breath and feeling much better now :-).
                               Now I'm listening to selawat to the prophet Muhammad sallallahu alaihi wasallam, very nice lyrics and music, one can cry just by listening to it. everything that we go through each day is with Allah's plan and will, no need to complain just accept it with patient, in shaa Allah it will be worthwhile, for Allah subhana watah a'la knows best for each and every creation of Him.
                              Today I plan to just relax and write something here. Well actually my idea of writing has run out. Probably because of the unhealthy body give effects to the healthy mind! well I must think positive. So do all of us. If we continue to think just because we are sick, thus we must always stay in bed and sleep all day long, I think that will be a waste of time. There will be time for us to sleep forever, BUT definitely not while we are still breathing, right? sick or healthy we must not surrender to the whisper of our heart to just do nothing. Even when we feel so tired and have no energy to do anything, think that even those who have so many obstacle in their life still can hurdle it with little or no complain at all, for example those who are living inGaza. They are so strong even the little when they have so many of their relatives and friends died, they can still smmile, whereas for us here, by seeing their misfortune has made us cried! But truly they teach us to be strong in whatever situation we are in. Hence I'm determine to be strong no matter what! But of course as human there are times when we need to stop an dcry for our weaknesses and sins that we did, so that we can repent and make a just reflections on our life, so that we can be a better person in shaa Allah. Well tha's all for now, may be will write again later, till then be steadfast in doing the good deeds, aameen :-)...

Bangun pagi agak terlewat sikit hari ni, kelam kabut mau solat subuh! Alhamdulillah, dah solat subuh, dapat lagi solat dhuha. Kami pun bincang-bincang mau pigi mana lagi hari ni? Lepas tu kami pun bercadang pi Putrajaya, melawat bos di ofisnya, kemudian terus ikut pi rumahnya bawa dorang si Ali Asin sekali dengan bininya si Jum.Sampai ofis, lambat juga baru terjumpa dengan bos, tapi malangnya moodnya tak bagus, so aku pun malas nak layan, nanti hati jadi panas, lagi tak selesa, so lebih baik diam-diam jak di pantry room walaupun perut sudah berkeroncong kelaparan! Lagi pun ada manusia macam perangai monyet dalam ofisnya, jadi kami-kami pun malas mau layan, tambah bikin sakit hati ja nanti! Apa pun perut tetap lapar, tunggu punya tunggu akhirnya dapat juga kami sisa makanan, alhamdulillah ;-).
               Akhirnya kira-kira jam 3.30 petang bos datang jenguk kami di bilik si Bobby,'erm...sapa mau ikut aku balik?', tengok kiri, tengok kanan, nada yang menjawab, akhirnya aku pun volunteer ikut. So aku pun ikut bos naik keretanya balik ke presint 10C putrajaya. Okay sudah moodnya, tapi cuaca di luar pula yang mendung menderam! Sampai jer di rumah, ada pula orang hantar kereta si Suzi, baru sampai, alhamdulillah. Jadi ada sudah kenderaannya sendiri, bolehlah dia jalan-jalan sudah tanpa perlu tunggu sopir!!!
               Ali Asin sibuk bergambar, dari dalam sampai ke luar rumah! Nenek Angah pun gembira dapat peluang jadi model terjun, temankan si Aliasin bergambar. Si Jum pun tidak mau ketinggalan, biar tiada orang tolong ambil gambar, dia sanggup ambil gambar sendiri, kasiaaan! Aku pun jadi jurufoto tidak bertauliah ambil gambar dorang. Maklumlah first time dorang suami-isteri tu datang ke putrajaya, kesian juga, so tolonglah ambil gambar. Tapi sebelum tu, sempat juga aku jadi massiuer, urut bos, sebab dia rasa kurang enak perut. Mungkin ubat demam selsema tu buat gastrik, macam aku hari tu, siap muntah dua plastik! Tapi syukurlah bos ndah juga sampai termuntah, cuba tidak berapa sihtlah, kesian dia. Tapi bila dia tahu kami tidak bermalam di rumahnya, balik moodnya ndah bagus. Masa kami mau pi bersalam untuk balik pun dia buat der jak! Kadang-kadang kesian juga dengan bos ni, tapi geram pun ada juga! Iyalah kalau perasaan orang lain berabis dia mau jaga, tapi adik-beradik sendiri, yang tidak kira dia susah ka senang ka sentiasa ada di samping, kalau tidak dapat tolong kewangan pun, at least jadi pendengar setia ni langsung dia tidak hargai perasaan kami. Ntalah, manusia ni mungkin memang macam tu, orang yang dorang boleh buli dorang buat tak endah, padahal ini orang yang sentiasa sokong dan mempertahankan dia, walaupun tidak dapat apa-apa dari dia! Adalah mungkin, menumpang tempat berteduh dari hujan, panas! Itu tidak dinafikan, tapi orang lain tu, sudahlah dia bagi macam-macam, aleh-aleh tikam ia dari belakang pula! ah macam orang yang datang pi ofis dia siang tadi tu la! Ada juga famili yang dia bagi kaya bagai nak rak, akhirnya keluar taring lawan dia juga! Kami ni juga yang tetap setia walau tidak diberi kekayaan ataupun peluang untuk mendapat sedikit kekayaan! But anyway segala kenikmatan, kekayaan, kejayaan, kebahagiaan itu semua hanya Allah S.W.T. juga yang berhak untuk memberinya. Dan for me mungkin apa yang dialami, samada oleh aku sendiri ataupun si bos tu semuanya adalah ujian dan dugaan dari Allah S.W.T., YANG PENTING KITALAH YANG KENA PANDAI MENILAI, MENCERNA DAN MENGAMBIL IKTIBAR darinya, wallahua'lam. Well I guess this is all for now, this time around my writing a bit free willy, just writing what comes into my mind and which is really happening! Good nite, or should I say good morning ;-)...shMD

Terlalu banyak yang ingin aku tulis, namun aku tidak tahu bagaimana untuk memulakannya. Apa pun lets try first kan? Sekarang ni kira demam cuti, ramai dah kawan2 yang mula 'mencutikan' diri, walaupun cuti sebenar untuk guru-guru hanya akan bermula pada 16hb November ni! Agak sunyi juga, budak-budak sekolah pun tak de, yang ambil SPM & STPM pula hari ni (11/11/13) tak der paper. Nasib baiklah ada juga budak-budak form1 dengan form2 yang ada ujian matematik, esok pula ujian science, so tak lah sunyi sangat! Nak marking paper pun rasa malas, asyik borak-borak jer kami seharian ni. Ada juga hasil bualan kami tu, siap salin resipi masak satay dan buat cheese cake lapis! Insha Allah akan dicuba tu, resipi yang dikongsi oleh puan Hawa dan cikgu Norzalina, mesti sedap tu! Cerita punya cerita, salin punya salin, time to go back pun sampai. Kemas-kemas buku, angkat bag, turun tangga, terjumpa pula dengan PK Pentadbiran kami, borak sebentar perkembangan semasa tentang PPD Beaufort for the coming 2014 punya new line-up! Hopefully semuanya berjalan dengan lancar dan akan dapat new PPD officer yang lebih prihatin dan berdaya maju supaya PPD Beaufort akan lebih mantap dan dapat melahirkan lebih ramai pelajar yang berkualiti! Well we'll see what tomorrow bring to us, till then sweet dreams everyone and take care.

Out of the blue, my son asked me to write about why Singapore is so advance as compared to Malaysia! What? Are you trying to put me on a hot seat? So instead I said to my boy, 'why don't we write why are we still not  advancing as compared to our neighbour? Well, he said it's still the same isn't it? Maybe, but at least we are trying to look at it in a different angle; in a more friendlier way, I think?!'
   So why is it that Malaysians especially  the malays and the Bumis are still living backward? I guess one of the reason is that we are so complacent with our situation. We always believe that everything should be provided for us by the leader or the government! We never believe in working our way up as other races did! Don't get me wrong, I'm not racist, it's just that it is really hard to convincce our people that it is up to US to change our LIFE by changing the way we THINK!I don't know if they agree with me or probably be furious with me, but that's how I feel! We can't really rely our whole life to depend on others to make us advance and become successful, we have to do it ourselves, whether it is hard or not we have to do it. But where do we start/ It has been decades that we have been in this scenario, always depending,always expecting for others to GIVE and for us just to RECEIVE! Maybe not all of us are like that, but more than half are in that category, that includes those who believe that they are wel educated but still can't depend on themselves to be successful in their own life, what a waste!
   So guys, ladies and gentlemen, think it's time for us to really look into our inner deeper self and ask ourselves if we have already done in our might to be dependent on ourselves or are we really that weak to live on our own without others to give? Well the answer is in our own heart and head, all we need to do is to discover the truth by doing honest self reflection, eventually we'll find the answer and will know what to do, hopefully. Well all the best guys, ladies and gentlemen as well as to me too...:-)!

Everyday moves as always, waking up late, take a bath then take breakfast. Today me and Akmal went to uncle Shabudin's house to get my chocolate that I asked Hj to buy for me from Labuan. Thanks bro for buying it ;-)! Since we are already there I took the opportunity to take a few liters of Kangen water from their place, of course with the permission of Hjh Norly, again thanks guys for letting us take your Kangen water. After talking a little bit with Norly, we went home cause aunty Lily wants to go out, have business outside I guess!
                                At home, I finished my laundry then doing some room cleaning, also another routine activity during this long holiday. After Zohor prayer, I did some sewing since there are lots of my old clothing that need to be sewed, but I only manage to sew one which took almost an hour for me to complete! What a slow sewer I am! Only after I finished sewing it that I realised I sewed it on the wrong side of the night gown! Well it's just a night gown, no one will see it anyway!
                                What am I suppose to do with my life? Sometime I feel happy the way I am. But there are times that I believe that I can do more and better! But what exactly is that which I can do more and better? I am a teacher, and most of the time I love being a teacher, but sometime I do believe that I do not destine to be a teacher. What I love most since I was a child is to be involve in business, you know selling things and anything that to do with business transaction. In fact I've been trying my hands on business since childhood until now! But not much success, probably because I did not put all my effort and mind in it. Most of the time I was just like doing the business that I am in now as a part time time job and also more like a charity job! Why did I say charity? This is because I do it to help others who are less fortunate than me to get extra money by helping me to sell all the things that I want to sell so that they can get commission from their sale. But to tell the truth I don't really get much profit out of it, in fact I don't make profit at all since most of my customers are paying in instalment! So I almost cannot use the money I get from the sale as the rotating cash flow since I can only get them in two or three months after I sell it to them, and sometimes there are people who did not pay at all! Still I continue doing the business simply because I just love doing business. Funny isn't it? Well thats it for now. In fact I wanted to write more, since I feel like I can keep on writing, but I haven't perform my Asar prayer, so really heve to stop. thanks for reading...;-)...

Morning we went to Al-Jabbar therapy, after that we went for lunch before going to Likas since Akmal is going to join Nuanis for mathematics tuition. So many things to do and yet nothing much is done! Holidays make people go lazy, I admit that! Ermmm what to do ah? I guess once and awhile just indulge ourselves with the urge to be lazy kan? Relaxing and be happy is really needed, so I guess I think I should be happy with whatever situation I'm in, and the truth is I am ;-)! Yeay, I am happy!
                                Well azan is already on air, gotta stop now. Till then, see ya!

Billionaires hope...

Walking down the memory lane makes me remember so many things that I did as a girl, then as a teenager. One thing that I love most is remembering my entrepreneurship aptitude that I have since I was a little girl. I still remember as a primary school student, I used to collect mangoes and make mangoes pickles and sell it to my friends and even to my teachers at SRK Petagas! Then as I move on to my secondary year, I started selling 'nasi lemak' and curry puff to my friends and other students. But after my Co-op teacher found out about it I was warned not to continue selling as it interfere with the school Co-op sells! What a challenge I caused even as an ordinary school girl then. After that, I didn't straight away stop my love of trading, so I signed up myself with the Avon company, and now I became a cosmetic sales girl! Hahaha...not really a sales girl, but a business girl, yes, that's it, an aspiring business Girl!
    Now as a teacher, I share my stories with my students, though it doesn't seems much, but I want them to know that life can be wonderful and adventurous in a very positive way. I still have fun and at the same time busy counting my fortune even when I was just a school girl, as I know my time was not wasted doing something stupid, rather I used them in a very constructive way. Thus I really hope that my students will have something to ponder upon when I told them my stories. There is nothing to brag about, it's just something ordinary that every ordinary people can do. They don't have to do something extra-ordinary to get what they really want in life, simply being an ordinary teenagers, a bit of curiosity, a blend of guts and of course faith, whatever they want is not that difficult to reach. As long as they have dream and make their dream as their guide for success, anybody will definitely be able to find success in their own right!
    Well, whatever it is, it goes back to the teenagers to really decide what they want in life. Though we honestly meant well for whatever we did or said as an adult, most of the time it was misunderstood by them. I honestly hope that they can see from the deepest of their heart that I or any other adults meant well for them, cos we also have been there before, being teenagers and have lots of confusion, so we know how it was. Thankfully we manage to go through all those insecurity in life and here we are today. May be not as successful or glamorous as we want to be, but I honestly feel glad and grateful for what I have now! I might not be a millionaire, but my heart is full with billionaires hope for all my budding students, hoping that all of them where ever they might be, will find success and happiness in finding themselves. With that I wish us all happiness and found whatever we look for in Life.

Embrace difficulties and comes out of it as a 'Hero'!

We always tend to sigh and experience so many ailments when we are facing difficulties, not because we are really sick, but we thought may be by thinking that way we won't be feeling really guilty of being in that bad situation! Sound awful isn't it, but I did think that way sometimes! Probably most of the time! For instance, when suddenly we feel so lazy going to work, though we are not sick at all spontaneously we feel sick, and therefore we didn't go to work! What a shame! But it's true and it happens all the time.
   How do we go about with this kind of situation? Any idea guys? Well, I myself do not see any clear way on how to clear myself from the clouds of mind which sometimes darken my day even when the sun was shining so bright! But eventually I do come to terms with my own dark side. Whatever that may come our way, may it be good or even bad, there will be no short cut to deal with it. All we need to do is to stop, analyse the situation and embrace it. Ups and downs in our life is just natural. Why should we fight with it? Accept it. Deal with it.Or simply just follow the flow where it is going to bring us. Whatever it is it won't be that bad, beside no one ever fall to the sky! We only fell to the earth where we can simply get up again, walk and continue as we use to, isn't it? Thus whatever that troubles us, believe me it won't last forever, unless you want it to be that way! At the end of the day it is always about how we take things and digest it the way our mind want it to be. If we think that everything that comes our way is just an intervention, or a test that will make us become wiser, stronger and courageous, why not embrace it? After all, it will put colours to our life and make it even beautiful and meaningful, instead of dull and meaningless! So, eventually I realise that it is us who makes our life difficult NOT the life we keep on blaming for the troubles that we have or had.
   So wake up! Stop blaming others or looking for something to blame on, instead be a 'Hero' that you deserve for freeing yourself from all the craziness that have been engulfing your life all this while. Smile and be thankful that you are still alive and be able to set straight your own mistakes. You are your own 'Hero'! Yes!

Something to think of...

It has been awhile since I last wrote here, and today is the sixth day of Syawal 1433H. Suppose to be moving around since it is still Hari Raya, unfortunately I'm not feeling well since yesterday, thus still at home and trying to write something just to fill up my time in a productive way hopefully. Everywhere we hear people are having 'open house' which is a sign that Malaysian are still blessed with harmony which we as Malaysian should be proud of, and I'm truly proud being a Malaysian, though we live together in a multi-racial race and ethnic, yet we can still live like One family, which has become the envy of other nation! Isn't it great and such an honour?
        Those who are still ungrateful of this blessing that we have, should stop and think for awhile and compare ourself with those who are in fact living and staying in their own country and yet living like a fugitive! Always running and hiding for they are afraid and scared of intruders who are now ruling their country, is that the life that we want to live?! I guess not, unless of course we are already losing our mind!
        Lets us together keep this harmonious and blissful country the way it is and work hand in hand to make it even glorious! Have a wonderful day ahead everyone :). Take care, till we meet again....

Lost...

My..I have so many things to share, but when it comes to writing suddenly everything seems gone! I kind of lost them. Strange isn't it? When you're not sitting in front of your lappy everything seems to be swimming into your brain. Sometimes you can even see it and feel like its real. Frustrated is the right word for me now. I really love to be able to share my stories but unfortunately my brain seems not responding to my desire. How could I ever be able to realise my dream?

Do I have to sit at the beach, listening to the slapping of wave at the white sand, and smell the salty air while watching birds flying across the ocean before I could write my master piece? Inevitably beach is definitely my favourite place.If I simply want to unwind I'll definitely choose the beach to go and relax myself. Maybe I'll jog along the beach barefooted just to feel the rough sand walking hand in hand with the wavy salty water to massage away my weariness or even my tiredness. Such an invigorating feeling!  How I wish I was really there at the beach running along the sandy beach, then I can go to my favourite satay stall and ease my famish growling belly! Later, I can watch the sun goes down and watch the beautiful sunset. It will be much wonderful if there is soft music to accompany the so beautiful scenery. Ermm it will be so perfect! I could hear the music of the ocean like a lullaby to my ear, soothingly bring me to a wonderful dream. Sleep will come soon as my head is readily looking for a soft spot where I can lay it for a short nap. Softly I could hear from afar the sound of calling for all Muslims to go for prayer...my sleepy head suddenly is no longer sleepy. I have to go now as my prayer mat is waiting for me to perform my prayer. Will continue again hopefully soon...and hope ideas will be swarming like bees to my head so that I can write more, insyaAllah. Wish me luck! Bye for now..take care.

TO LIVE HARMONIOUSLY, NOT TO RULE!

Time is always on our mind. In fact now while I'm typing this all over Malaysia is talking about when is the time for another election! Quite a big question there, which will be discussed, whether you are in to politic or not. Everybody is entitle to be discussing it. But how far can we talk about it? That is another question, not that we are talking that it is against the rule to go further, but whether it is necessary or not! I mean to talk about the election.

I see a lot of people are trying to take this opportunity to come with a lot of opinions during this pre-election time. Some are quite motivating and of course some are simply looking for faults of others. Talking about faults; most of us are only creative and motivated to look for as many faults of others as possible, rather than be looking for our own faults and try to mend it! It is okay to look at others fault but not to judge nor to criticise, instead take it as the edging point for us to measure our own fault. No one is perfect, but is it the reason why we cannot change to be a much better person? True to change is not easy, but we still have to do it even though it might hurt us, it is inevitable and something quite natural to us human. But of course it is for the better. Definitely!

So what does it to do with election then? Well I'm not so sure about that. Probably election is the time when people especially politicians are making their own reflection, and see how far they have accomplish what they have promised or vowed to do during the previous election! That could be it, isn't it? Thus it will lead to changes, not necessarily to form a new government, but probably to make a few changes here an there, that could include changes of representatives to each party that will be participating in the election with the hope that it will bring new perspective to the party vision and mission! Well we still have to wait and see, hopefully it turns out well, with no chaos that will only jeopardise our country integrity, harmony and definitely our well established uniformity. I appeal to all that we should embrace our harmonious state and let it be forever peace in our country. Life is too short to waste it for things that will only ruin our humanity, when we should be working together hand in hand to build a great nation for all TO LIVE HARMONIOUSLY, NOT TO RULE! We already have our great ruler, that is ALLAH SWT, simply follow whatever Allah has told us to do, insyaAllah everything will be fine and falls at it's place accordingly.

TIME..is it enough?

What a day! So many things to do with so little time to spare! Is it really true? I mean the statement. We always complain of having not enough time to do or complete our every day tasks, whether it is with regards of our daily work as well as our personal needs. The truth is each and everyone of us have the same 24 hours a day, seven days a week, thirty days a month and 365 days a year!
   Some of us manage to get and accomplish their work and desire within the time limit or even faster than that, and yet most of us would sigh and groan that time is always not at our side! Why is that? Do you feel the same way too? Cos' to be honest I do feel that way too once in awhile. Come to think of it, I felt so ashame of myself, when a lot of people who has the same amount of time in their hand can accomplish so many things, and yet we are still struggling even to finish a single task which is so common to us!...(to be continued...)

'HUMAN MAGNET'

Today I watched TV something on motivational talk. I believe most of us have heard this phrase 'Smile, and the whole world will smile with us'. It looks so easy and I believe that even a little baby can do that! But how many people do that? Sometimes, just because you have a little money, some sort of a title etc. then we start to show some kind of attitude that we are not suppose to have, cos that attitude only suitable and right for the almighty, that is Allah SWT! 
The truth is, we can be a very lovable person if we simply follow what our beloved Rasulullah S.A.W. had advised us to do, that is to always smile. It cost us not a single cent, nor does it burden us at all. But again, most words are easier said than done...though for some it looks so easy, but for some it could be a dreadful experience to do! Why? Only the person who said it knows the reason! Every individual has their own mind...but as loving committee members, we should give our piece of mind so that what is wrong can be straightened. Not that we are better than them, but if we know something better, why not share it with others? True, not every one will agree with us, as the saying goes 'we can't satisfied everyone needs', but it is not wrong to try. I know for sure that I'm no better than the rest of us, but I believe that it is our obligation to be able to help one another. Helping not necessarily in terms of energy or monetary, but giving ideas is one of them.
So how can we be a human magnet? Well once again I have to say that smile is one of them! Just give it a try! Yes sometimes it is not easy to smile to someone that you barely know, but by doing so, you'll see the magic ; how in an instance the person that you smile at will definitely smile back at you! Well, even while typing this I  am smiling :). Till then, Smile. InsyaAllah, if not the whole world, at least your own self will be smiling and the effect that you'll get is that you'll feel good the whole day!....shMD

Like a fish out of water...

The last time I wrote was on the 13th July..erm that was quite long right? During those time a lot of things had happened Ramadhan came and we Muslim do our compulsory fasting. Then came Syawal, Eid month where we celebrate our victory for being successful to complete our fasting and hopefully get the greatest grading from Allah, insyaAllah.
                                During that suppossedly victorious month, I also happened to be getting in touch of an old friend who called me out of the blue at my niece's house. It was really a surprise to me to hear from him, especially when it never cross my mind at all that he of all people will be calling me especially on the 3rd day of Eid, when he is suppose to be celebrating it with his own family, I meant his wife and children because this is the time when one should try to get bonded with their family after long months of working and no relaxing, this should be the time! Since it was still Raya time, so I casually invited him over to our family own Raya open house which was due two days after we talked on the phone. To make the long story short, on the day of our Raya open house he finally came, alone! So I started asking him where is wife was and he said that they went back to KK already and he himself just got back from sending them there. Acceptable explanation which does not raise any curiosity on my part at all. So I simply talk for awhile with him, then I went around to other table since there were other friends that need my attention too, since they were also invited by me or other family members of mine which need to be entertained too! Thus I left him with my nieces so that I can do my responsibilty as one of the host. After awhile he came to me and took his leave, and we parted as long friend who had just met after so many years of not seeing each other. That's all, nothing more and nothing less on my part, at least. Again out of the blue he called me, after leaving the house for about half an hour or so. I was taken by a surprise, because I never thought that he would called me again that soon! I wonder why? Suddenly he jokingly (in my mind) said to me that he would come asking for my hand in marriage since he said that I was still single! Abruptly I replied to him, 'Are you crazy? Do you want to beheaded by my family?' Then he asked me,'Why?'...so I said to him that he is married therefore how could he be asking me to marry him? That would be asking something stupid, especially when I and my entire family knew that he was already married. Then he started telling me about his divorce which had happened three months earlier. When I heard that, I could not believe my ears, why am I listening to this? Why should he be telling me this? I do not want to know anything about his marriage life, even so because it is none of my damn business. However, since he wanted somebody (I guess) to listen to his problem so I listened tentatively as a good friend, that's it.
                                 Since that day onward we become closer, probably because he kept on calling or smsing me just to ask how's my day and simply to inform me what he was doing or his whereabouts. I find it quite odd, but at the same time I like it too. He sent me his pictures, then his children pictures...which suddenly make me thinking, why is this man doing all these? What has got into his mind? The smsing became more frequent from day to day. Then came another chance for me to invite him again to another open house of one of my sister and he accepted it. So we met again....(to be continued)...

It has been awhile since I last wrote here. So many things has happened and will definitely continue to happen. First and foremost I am so glad that I finally has the chance to go for Umrah on 25th May 2011. I felt blessed and loved especially by Allah S.W.T., because of his grace I have the chance and opportunity to cleanse myself from my sins and wrongdoings knowingly or otherwise. I praise Allah for all his blessings to me and my family. I'm also blessed to have met someone who is very pious and religious. He helps me to see the life with a wider view and also sees what is inside ourself so that we will be able to mend it while we still have the chance. Sometimes I cried, thinking of all the things that I've done which I am not very proud of. I really wish and hope that Allah will show me the way to repent myself and forgive me for all of my sins.   However, most of the time I still find it very hard to be a better person, for the test of life is overwhelmingly too much for me to handle. Though I know God will never test me for something that I could not take, but still it is not easy. For some, it is easy to remind us that there is nothing that we could not handle, but the truth is, when we are in that difficult situation, we feel so weak and powerless. Everything seems so bleak and grim, soul less. Crying is all that I can do, since nothing else seems work for me! Why is it so difficult to be a better person, when doing wrong is so easy and seems pretty normal? Oh...how I wish I have all the answer and be able to defend myself from getting into this mess of uncertainty of my own life. But I still believe in God, not because I can see it, but because I can see things more clearer because of God! My only wish is that God will never leave me..so that I will still have hope, that life is not to torture my heart, but to make it stronger and have faith that after every dark cloud, there will be a silver lining! Oh your most gracious God..please help me in this journey so that I'll be one of those who becomes your guess in your great heaven..amin.

The history of our life...

Everyday there would be stories and events that become the lines in our journey of life that create a trail of history folded neatly in our own memories. It could be happy, sad, joyous, extraordinary but all the same it will become part of our lenghty lines of memory that will make us either happier or sadder, weaker or stronger, success or fail to gain what we dream of. Whatever the outcome would depend on our own action towards the situation we are facing...we might be successful or we could also face failure..But whatever it is we shouldn't be feeling despair, dissapointed or give up, because our journey is not ended yet..keep on moving until we see the light of joy, happiness and faith glowing brightly unto our face towards the end of the tunnel of our journey..because that's what we really are, the light of heaven upon creation by God. Though sometimes we feel dissapointed over things that we experience along the way, we must not think of it as the end...cos God is always right to his word..so long we are perseverance Insyallah the light will show itself to us and guiding us toward the light of truth that will accompany us till the end and the life after...

Critisize oneself before others....

It has been quite sometime I wrote here...just got back from performing Umrah...so many things we learn not only about ourself but also those surrounding us. We are so easy to tell others about their mistakes and advising them what to do and what NOT to do. that we forget to inculcate that advise to ourself, probably because we believe that we have no mistake and that we are already pure and have nothing to change and improve! How nice if it is all true! The truth is we should look upon ourself first before examining others so that we will stop critisizing others but starting to evaluate our own performance so that we will be able to improve and be a better person that we always wish and pray for all the time! InsyAllah with perseverence nothing is impossible as God promise..if we are willing to work hard to change ourself with full faith to Allah, definitely the things that we wish for will come through..it's just a matter of time..be patient!

It's Us not the tool we use...

The other day I attended a Premier Talk by Tun Mahathir Muhammad at Pan Pac Sutera. Somebody asked if we should change our current system which is democracy to something else, as our current system seems not to be working as what the people would like it to be. In his response he gives an example of the usage of a knife; knife can be used to craft and create such delicate and beautiful things as our mind can imagine possible, at the same time the same knife that is used to create so many beautiful things can also be used as a weapon to hurt and kill others as the wicked mind wishes to. Come to think of it, well definitely nothing would happen unless we the HUMAN who think about it and act upon it. If we think of something nice, beautiful and bring good to all, definitely the good thing will become, if otherwise we think of all the bad and destructive things to happen, eventually the same will become. Thus, whatever the things or tools that we are blaming for all the bad and the destruction that is happening to us or around us, is not of any use unless we HUMAN use it for the things that we want it to be, whether bad or good. Therefore, let us all think wisely before we act...for the outcome will be the perfect mirror to our deeds whether it is good or the other way round!