Lost...

My..I have so many things to share, but when it comes to writing suddenly everything seems gone! I kind of lost them. Strange isn't it? When you're not sitting in front of your lappy everything seems to be swimming into your brain. Sometimes you can even see it and feel like its real. Frustrated is the right word for me now. I really love to be able to share my stories but unfortunately my brain seems not responding to my desire. How could I ever be able to realise my dream?

Do I have to sit at the beach, listening to the slapping of wave at the white sand, and smell the salty air while watching birds flying across the ocean before I could write my master piece? Inevitably beach is definitely my favourite place.If I simply want to unwind I'll definitely choose the beach to go and relax myself. Maybe I'll jog along the beach barefooted just to feel the rough sand walking hand in hand with the wavy salty water to massage away my weariness or even my tiredness. Such an invigorating feeling!  How I wish I was really there at the beach running along the sandy beach, then I can go to my favourite satay stall and ease my famish growling belly! Later, I can watch the sun goes down and watch the beautiful sunset. It will be much wonderful if there is soft music to accompany the so beautiful scenery. Ermm it will be so perfect! I could hear the music of the ocean like a lullaby to my ear, soothingly bring me to a wonderful dream. Sleep will come soon as my head is readily looking for a soft spot where I can lay it for a short nap. Softly I could hear from afar the sound of calling for all Muslims to go for prayer...my sleepy head suddenly is no longer sleepy. I have to go now as my prayer mat is waiting for me to perform my prayer. Will continue again hopefully soon...and hope ideas will be swarming like bees to my head so that I can write more, insyaAllah. Wish me luck! Bye for now..take care.

TO LIVE HARMONIOUSLY, NOT TO RULE!

Time is always on our mind. In fact now while I'm typing this all over Malaysia is talking about when is the time for another election! Quite a big question there, which will be discussed, whether you are in to politic or not. Everybody is entitle to be discussing it. But how far can we talk about it? That is another question, not that we are talking that it is against the rule to go further, but whether it is necessary or not! I mean to talk about the election.

I see a lot of people are trying to take this opportunity to come with a lot of opinions during this pre-election time. Some are quite motivating and of course some are simply looking for faults of others. Talking about faults; most of us are only creative and motivated to look for as many faults of others as possible, rather than be looking for our own faults and try to mend it! It is okay to look at others fault but not to judge nor to criticise, instead take it as the edging point for us to measure our own fault. No one is perfect, but is it the reason why we cannot change to be a much better person? True to change is not easy, but we still have to do it even though it might hurt us, it is inevitable and something quite natural to us human. But of course it is for the better. Definitely!

So what does it to do with election then? Well I'm not so sure about that. Probably election is the time when people especially politicians are making their own reflection, and see how far they have accomplish what they have promised or vowed to do during the previous election! That could be it, isn't it? Thus it will lead to changes, not necessarily to form a new government, but probably to make a few changes here an there, that could include changes of representatives to each party that will be participating in the election with the hope that it will bring new perspective to the party vision and mission! Well we still have to wait and see, hopefully it turns out well, with no chaos that will only jeopardise our country integrity, harmony and definitely our well established uniformity. I appeal to all that we should embrace our harmonious state and let it be forever peace in our country. Life is too short to waste it for things that will only ruin our humanity, when we should be working together hand in hand to build a great nation for all TO LIVE HARMONIOUSLY, NOT TO RULE! We already have our great ruler, that is ALLAH SWT, simply follow whatever Allah has told us to do, insyaAllah everything will be fine and falls at it's place accordingly.

TIME..is it enough?

What a day! So many things to do with so little time to spare! Is it really true? I mean the statement. We always complain of having not enough time to do or complete our every day tasks, whether it is with regards of our daily work as well as our personal needs. The truth is each and everyone of us have the same 24 hours a day, seven days a week, thirty days a month and 365 days a year!
   Some of us manage to get and accomplish their work and desire within the time limit or even faster than that, and yet most of us would sigh and groan that time is always not at our side! Why is that? Do you feel the same way too? Cos' to be honest I do feel that way too once in awhile. Come to think of it, I felt so ashame of myself, when a lot of people who has the same amount of time in their hand can accomplish so many things, and yet we are still struggling even to finish a single task which is so common to us!...(to be continued...)

'HUMAN MAGNET'

Today I watched TV something on motivational talk. I believe most of us have heard this phrase 'Smile, and the whole world will smile with us'. It looks so easy and I believe that even a little baby can do that! But how many people do that? Sometimes, just because you have a little money, some sort of a title etc. then we start to show some kind of attitude that we are not suppose to have, cos that attitude only suitable and right for the almighty, that is Allah SWT! 
The truth is, we can be a very lovable person if we simply follow what our beloved Rasulullah S.A.W. had advised us to do, that is to always smile. It cost us not a single cent, nor does it burden us at all. But again, most words are easier said than done...though for some it looks so easy, but for some it could be a dreadful experience to do! Why? Only the person who said it knows the reason! Every individual has their own mind...but as loving committee members, we should give our piece of mind so that what is wrong can be straightened. Not that we are better than them, but if we know something better, why not share it with others? True, not every one will agree with us, as the saying goes 'we can't satisfied everyone needs', but it is not wrong to try. I know for sure that I'm no better than the rest of us, but I believe that it is our obligation to be able to help one another. Helping not necessarily in terms of energy or monetary, but giving ideas is one of them.
So how can we be a human magnet? Well once again I have to say that smile is one of them! Just give it a try! Yes sometimes it is not easy to smile to someone that you barely know, but by doing so, you'll see the magic ; how in an instance the person that you smile at will definitely smile back at you! Well, even while typing this I  am smiling :). Till then, Smile. InsyaAllah, if not the whole world, at least your own self will be smiling and the effect that you'll get is that you'll feel good the whole day!....shMD

Like a fish out of water...

The last time I wrote was on the 13th July..erm that was quite long right? During those time a lot of things had happened Ramadhan came and we Muslim do our compulsory fasting. Then came Syawal, Eid month where we celebrate our victory for being successful to complete our fasting and hopefully get the greatest grading from Allah, insyaAllah.
                                During that suppossedly victorious month, I also happened to be getting in touch of an old friend who called me out of the blue at my niece's house. It was really a surprise to me to hear from him, especially when it never cross my mind at all that he of all people will be calling me especially on the 3rd day of Eid, when he is suppose to be celebrating it with his own family, I meant his wife and children because this is the time when one should try to get bonded with their family after long months of working and no relaxing, this should be the time! Since it was still Raya time, so I casually invited him over to our family own Raya open house which was due two days after we talked on the phone. To make the long story short, on the day of our Raya open house he finally came, alone! So I started asking him where is wife was and he said that they went back to KK already and he himself just got back from sending them there. Acceptable explanation which does not raise any curiosity on my part at all. So I simply talk for awhile with him, then I went around to other table since there were other friends that need my attention too, since they were also invited by me or other family members of mine which need to be entertained too! Thus I left him with my nieces so that I can do my responsibilty as one of the host. After awhile he came to me and took his leave, and we parted as long friend who had just met after so many years of not seeing each other. That's all, nothing more and nothing less on my part, at least. Again out of the blue he called me, after leaving the house for about half an hour or so. I was taken by a surprise, because I never thought that he would called me again that soon! I wonder why? Suddenly he jokingly (in my mind) said to me that he would come asking for my hand in marriage since he said that I was still single! Abruptly I replied to him, 'Are you crazy? Do you want to beheaded by my family?' Then he asked me,'Why?'...so I said to him that he is married therefore how could he be asking me to marry him? That would be asking something stupid, especially when I and my entire family knew that he was already married. Then he started telling me about his divorce which had happened three months earlier. When I heard that, I could not believe my ears, why am I listening to this? Why should he be telling me this? I do not want to know anything about his marriage life, even so because it is none of my damn business. However, since he wanted somebody (I guess) to listen to his problem so I listened tentatively as a good friend, that's it.
                                 Since that day onward we become closer, probably because he kept on calling or smsing me just to ask how's my day and simply to inform me what he was doing or his whereabouts. I find it quite odd, but at the same time I like it too. He sent me his pictures, then his children pictures...which suddenly make me thinking, why is this man doing all these? What has got into his mind? The smsing became more frequent from day to day. Then came another chance for me to invite him again to another open house of one of my sister and he accepted it. So we met again....(to be continued)...

It has been awhile since I last wrote here. So many things has happened and will definitely continue to happen. First and foremost I am so glad that I finally has the chance to go for Umrah on 25th May 2011. I felt blessed and loved especially by Allah S.W.T., because of his grace I have the chance and opportunity to cleanse myself from my sins and wrongdoings knowingly or otherwise. I praise Allah for all his blessings to me and my family. I'm also blessed to have met someone who is very pious and religious. He helps me to see the life with a wider view and also sees what is inside ourself so that we will be able to mend it while we still have the chance. Sometimes I cried, thinking of all the things that I've done which I am not very proud of. I really wish and hope that Allah will show me the way to repent myself and forgive me for all of my sins.   However, most of the time I still find it very hard to be a better person, for the test of life is overwhelmingly too much for me to handle. Though I know God will never test me for something that I could not take, but still it is not easy. For some, it is easy to remind us that there is nothing that we could not handle, but the truth is, when we are in that difficult situation, we feel so weak and powerless. Everything seems so bleak and grim, soul less. Crying is all that I can do, since nothing else seems work for me! Why is it so difficult to be a better person, when doing wrong is so easy and seems pretty normal? Oh...how I wish I have all the answer and be able to defend myself from getting into this mess of uncertainty of my own life. But I still believe in God, not because I can see it, but because I can see things more clearer because of God! My only wish is that God will never leave me..so that I will still have hope, that life is not to torture my heart, but to make it stronger and have faith that after every dark cloud, there will be a silver lining! Oh your most gracious God..please help me in this journey so that I'll be one of those who becomes your guess in your great heaven..amin.

The history of our life...

Everyday there would be stories and events that become the lines in our journey of life that create a trail of history folded neatly in our own memories. It could be happy, sad, joyous, extraordinary but all the same it will become part of our lenghty lines of memory that will make us either happier or sadder, weaker or stronger, success or fail to gain what we dream of. Whatever the outcome would depend on our own action towards the situation we are facing...we might be successful or we could also face failure..But whatever it is we shouldn't be feeling despair, dissapointed or give up, because our journey is not ended yet..keep on moving until we see the light of joy, happiness and faith glowing brightly unto our face towards the end of the tunnel of our journey..because that's what we really are, the light of heaven upon creation by God. Though sometimes we feel dissapointed over things that we experience along the way, we must not think of it as the end...cos God is always right to his word..so long we are perseverance Insyallah the light will show itself to us and guiding us toward the light of truth that will accompany us till the end and the life after...