Out of the blue, my son asked me to write about why Singapore is so advance as compared to Malaysia! What? Are you trying to put me on a hot seat? So instead I said to my boy, 'why don't we write why are we still not  advancing as compared to our neighbour? Well, he said it's still the same isn't it? Maybe, but at least we are trying to look at it in a different angle; in a more friendlier way, I think?!'
   So why is it that Malaysians especially  the malays and the Bumis are still living backward? I guess one of the reason is that we are so complacent with our situation. We always believe that everything should be provided for us by the leader or the government! We never believe in working our way up as other races did! Don't get me wrong, I'm not racist, it's just that it is really hard to convincce our people that it is up to US to change our LIFE by changing the way we THINK!I don't know if they agree with me or probably be furious with me, but that's how I feel! We can't really rely our whole life to depend on others to make us advance and become successful, we have to do it ourselves, whether it is hard or not we have to do it. But where do we start/ It has been decades that we have been in this scenario, always depending,always expecting for others to GIVE and for us just to RECEIVE! Maybe not all of us are like that, but more than half are in that category, that includes those who believe that they are wel educated but still can't depend on themselves to be successful in their own life, what a waste!
   So guys, ladies and gentlemen, think it's time for us to really look into our inner deeper self and ask ourselves if we have already done in our might to be dependent on ourselves or are we really that weak to live on our own without others to give? Well the answer is in our own heart and head, all we need to do is to discover the truth by doing honest self reflection, eventually we'll find the answer and will know what to do, hopefully. Well all the best guys, ladies and gentlemen as well as to me too...:-)!

Everyday moves as always, waking up late, take a bath then take breakfast. Today me and Akmal went to uncle Shabudin's house to get my chocolate that I asked Hj to buy for me from Labuan. Thanks bro for buying it ;-)! Since we are already there I took the opportunity to take a few liters of Kangen water from their place, of course with the permission of Hjh Norly, again thanks guys for letting us take your Kangen water. After talking a little bit with Norly, we went home cause aunty Lily wants to go out, have business outside I guess!
                                At home, I finished my laundry then doing some room cleaning, also another routine activity during this long holiday. After Zohor prayer, I did some sewing since there are lots of my old clothing that need to be sewed, but I only manage to sew one which took almost an hour for me to complete! What a slow sewer I am! Only after I finished sewing it that I realised I sewed it on the wrong side of the night gown! Well it's just a night gown, no one will see it anyway!
                                What am I suppose to do with my life? Sometime I feel happy the way I am. But there are times that I believe that I can do more and better! But what exactly is that which I can do more and better? I am a teacher, and most of the time I love being a teacher, but sometime I do believe that I do not destine to be a teacher. What I love most since I was a child is to be involve in business, you know selling things and anything that to do with business transaction. In fact I've been trying my hands on business since childhood until now! But not much success, probably because I did not put all my effort and mind in it. Most of the time I was just like doing the business that I am in now as a part time time job and also more like a charity job! Why did I say charity? This is because I do it to help others who are less fortunate than me to get extra money by helping me to sell all the things that I want to sell so that they can get commission from their sale. But to tell the truth I don't really get much profit out of it, in fact I don't make profit at all since most of my customers are paying in instalment! So I almost cannot use the money I get from the sale as the rotating cash flow since I can only get them in two or three months after I sell it to them, and sometimes there are people who did not pay at all! Still I continue doing the business simply because I just love doing business. Funny isn't it? Well thats it for now. In fact I wanted to write more, since I feel like I can keep on writing, but I haven't perform my Asar prayer, so really heve to stop. thanks for reading...;-)...

Morning we went to Al-Jabbar therapy, after that we went for lunch before going to Likas since Akmal is going to join Nuanis for mathematics tuition. So many things to do and yet nothing much is done! Holidays make people go lazy, I admit that! Ermmm what to do ah? I guess once and awhile just indulge ourselves with the urge to be lazy kan? Relaxing and be happy is really needed, so I guess I think I should be happy with whatever situation I'm in, and the truth is I am ;-)! Yeay, I am happy!
                                Well azan is already on air, gotta stop now. Till then, see ya!

Billionaires hope...

Walking down the memory lane makes me remember so many things that I did as a girl, then as a teenager. One thing that I love most is remembering my entrepreneurship aptitude that I have since I was a little girl. I still remember as a primary school student, I used to collect mangoes and make mangoes pickles and sell it to my friends and even to my teachers at SRK Petagas! Then as I move on to my secondary year, I started selling 'nasi lemak' and curry puff to my friends and other students. But after my Co-op teacher found out about it I was warned not to continue selling as it interfere with the school Co-op sells! What a challenge I caused even as an ordinary school girl then. After that, I didn't straight away stop my love of trading, so I signed up myself with the Avon company, and now I became a cosmetic sales girl! Hahaha...not really a sales girl, but a business girl, yes, that's it, an aspiring business Girl!
    Now as a teacher, I share my stories with my students, though it doesn't seems much, but I want them to know that life can be wonderful and adventurous in a very positive way. I still have fun and at the same time busy counting my fortune even when I was just a school girl, as I know my time was not wasted doing something stupid, rather I used them in a very constructive way. Thus I really hope that my students will have something to ponder upon when I told them my stories. There is nothing to brag about, it's just something ordinary that every ordinary people can do. They don't have to do something extra-ordinary to get what they really want in life, simply being an ordinary teenagers, a bit of curiosity, a blend of guts and of course faith, whatever they want is not that difficult to reach. As long as they have dream and make their dream as their guide for success, anybody will definitely be able to find success in their own right!
    Well, whatever it is, it goes back to the teenagers to really decide what they want in life. Though we honestly meant well for whatever we did or said as an adult, most of the time it was misunderstood by them. I honestly hope that they can see from the deepest of their heart that I or any other adults meant well for them, cos we also have been there before, being teenagers and have lots of confusion, so we know how it was. Thankfully we manage to go through all those insecurity in life and here we are today. May be not as successful or glamorous as we want to be, but I honestly feel glad and grateful for what I have now! I might not be a millionaire, but my heart is full with billionaires hope for all my budding students, hoping that all of them where ever they might be, will find success and happiness in finding themselves. With that I wish us all happiness and found whatever we look for in Life.

Embrace difficulties and comes out of it as a 'Hero'!

We always tend to sigh and experience so many ailments when we are facing difficulties, not because we are really sick, but we thought may be by thinking that way we won't be feeling really guilty of being in that bad situation! Sound awful isn't it, but I did think that way sometimes! Probably most of the time! For instance, when suddenly we feel so lazy going to work, though we are not sick at all spontaneously we feel sick, and therefore we didn't go to work! What a shame! But it's true and it happens all the time.
   How do we go about with this kind of situation? Any idea guys? Well, I myself do not see any clear way on how to clear myself from the clouds of mind which sometimes darken my day even when the sun was shining so bright! But eventually I do come to terms with my own dark side. Whatever that may come our way, may it be good or even bad, there will be no short cut to deal with it. All we need to do is to stop, analyse the situation and embrace it. Ups and downs in our life is just natural. Why should we fight with it? Accept it. Deal with it.Or simply just follow the flow where it is going to bring us. Whatever it is it won't be that bad, beside no one ever fall to the sky! We only fell to the earth where we can simply get up again, walk and continue as we use to, isn't it? Thus whatever that troubles us, believe me it won't last forever, unless you want it to be that way! At the end of the day it is always about how we take things and digest it the way our mind want it to be. If we think that everything that comes our way is just an intervention, or a test that will make us become wiser, stronger and courageous, why not embrace it? After all, it will put colours to our life and make it even beautiful and meaningful, instead of dull and meaningless! So, eventually I realise that it is us who makes our life difficult NOT the life we keep on blaming for the troubles that we have or had.
   So wake up! Stop blaming others or looking for something to blame on, instead be a 'Hero' that you deserve for freeing yourself from all the craziness that have been engulfing your life all this while. Smile and be thankful that you are still alive and be able to set straight your own mistakes. You are your own 'Hero'! Yes!

Something to think of...

It has been awhile since I last wrote here, and today is the sixth day of Syawal 1433H. Suppose to be moving around since it is still Hari Raya, unfortunately I'm not feeling well since yesterday, thus still at home and trying to write something just to fill up my time in a productive way hopefully. Everywhere we hear people are having 'open house' which is a sign that Malaysian are still blessed with harmony which we as Malaysian should be proud of, and I'm truly proud being a Malaysian, though we live together in a multi-racial race and ethnic, yet we can still live like One family, which has become the envy of other nation! Isn't it great and such an honour?
        Those who are still ungrateful of this blessing that we have, should stop and think for awhile and compare ourself with those who are in fact living and staying in their own country and yet living like a fugitive! Always running and hiding for they are afraid and scared of intruders who are now ruling their country, is that the life that we want to live?! I guess not, unless of course we are already losing our mind!
        Lets us together keep this harmonious and blissful country the way it is and work hand in hand to make it even glorious! Have a wonderful day ahead everyone :). Take care, till we meet again....

Lost...

My..I have so many things to share, but when it comes to writing suddenly everything seems gone! I kind of lost them. Strange isn't it? When you're not sitting in front of your lappy everything seems to be swimming into your brain. Sometimes you can even see it and feel like its real. Frustrated is the right word for me now. I really love to be able to share my stories but unfortunately my brain seems not responding to my desire. How could I ever be able to realise my dream?

Do I have to sit at the beach, listening to the slapping of wave at the white sand, and smell the salty air while watching birds flying across the ocean before I could write my master piece? Inevitably beach is definitely my favourite place.If I simply want to unwind I'll definitely choose the beach to go and relax myself. Maybe I'll jog along the beach barefooted just to feel the rough sand walking hand in hand with the wavy salty water to massage away my weariness or even my tiredness. Such an invigorating feeling!  How I wish I was really there at the beach running along the sandy beach, then I can go to my favourite satay stall and ease my famish growling belly! Later, I can watch the sun goes down and watch the beautiful sunset. It will be much wonderful if there is soft music to accompany the so beautiful scenery. Ermm it will be so perfect! I could hear the music of the ocean like a lullaby to my ear, soothingly bring me to a wonderful dream. Sleep will come soon as my head is readily looking for a soft spot where I can lay it for a short nap. Softly I could hear from afar the sound of calling for all Muslims to go for prayer...my sleepy head suddenly is no longer sleepy. I have to go now as my prayer mat is waiting for me to perform my prayer. Will continue again hopefully soon...and hope ideas will be swarming like bees to my head so that I can write more, insyaAllah. Wish me luck! Bye for now..take care.